Wednesday, October 13, 2010
BLOWIN STEAM BOUT DONALD
Ya know there are alotta things that seem ta get under my skin more so now as I age than b4 then again perhaps its the other way around. I dunno. Today I had a perty fucked up shitty, very annoyed day. Tho it didn't start out that way at all. In fact I had a great nights rest & slept like a real champ. My day even started out great. Lou, my infant son, & I got up spent some time together, took a shower together, got dressed & took my friend Jimmy's mom, Trish ta run some errands. She treated us ta a really nice lunch at Cafe Verona located off tha Independence Square. We dropped her off bk home @ 3pm & just as we were pullin out of her drive way, that's about tha time my day started ta take a real shit turn! Big Mamma called ta tell me my girls were home from school *& wanted ta know where I was at. Ok cool no big deal here's where Im at & I'm on my way now should be there in about 20mins. Then I get 2 calls from the front office, which I didn't answer. Then I get a call from their dad. I told him where I was at & yes I was aware of tha girls bein home from school now & was on my way, will be there in about 20mins er less, on my way now. As soon as I pulled up he reminded me tha girls were locked out of tha house & had no key. I told him yes i was aware of that & tha fact that I had told them after i had their 3rd key made that I wasn't gonna have another one made, if they lost it, then they were gonna be s.o.l. I stressed the importance to them of makin sure tha 3rd one was not lost! & they of course rest assured me it wouldn't be. Well they lost it, therefore they're s.o.l. until they find one of tha missing 3. He tried talkin me into allowing him to have a copy made for them. I told him no, bcuz all that would do is keep them from taking accountability for their lack of responsability. About 10mins after i unlocked tha door Landon got home. During which time their father had asked me ta find his swim trunks for him so he could take them all out ta Coco keys. Not a problem, I found those rt off tha bat. Tha girls started fighting over swim suits. KK started throwin a fit about her one piece. I offered her ta wear one of my 2 piece bottoms & she refused bcuz none of them were a perfect match to her 2 piece top. I tried my absolute best to accomodate her & make her happy tho it was all done to no avail. Finally they all got out tha door. Tho just b4 they did I started receivin text messages from Lou's father. Needless ta say, they really started pissin me off!
Don't get me wrong, I strongly believe in bein civil to tha best of your ability with an x, especially if you share a child together. If yer able to carry on a perty decent if not some what of a close relationship with that person, then great. HOWEVER; considering the circumstances that may have been tha cause of the break up I'd be perty leary on some things shared w that person.
Here's an example;
If ya leave yer partner fer someone else & if your partner was a woman & she just found out that she was pregnant w your child & ya do yer x partner dirty in more ways than one! THEN DON"T GO BOO HOOING TO HER ABOUT YER LIFE!! due to all of the choices in which you have made!! ESPECIALLY if you kept her pregnancy secret from EVERYONE around you, including your parents, your new gf & all of your friends & then didn't have ANYTHING ta do with tha pregnancy in any way what so ever, not ta mention being non compliant w any & all doctors involved with the care of the pregnancy or tha child before or after birth!! & avoided participating in a paternity test for several months after the baby was born, when she & tha child had their part done immediately after delivery!! Let's not forget tha fact that a text was sent to her saying, "I don't want to have anything to do with it. I want proof! even then I'm going to sign all over to you" while this child is in the hospital knocking on deaths door just 7days after being born! & tha fact you didn't set eyes on the child until it was 10 months of age! fer tha first time! & here tha child is 15months of age & you've only seen tha child a total of 8 times since birth!! BY YOUR CHOICE & NOT THA MOTHERS!!
HOW DARE YOU!! BOO HOO 2 HER about your now x girlfriend that you left her for or about your psychiotic outta control daughter, or yer best friend who just committed suicide or your parents who are 89 yrs of age & are not doing well & better yet HOW FUCKING DARE YOU tell her you don't like the fact you're not there for your child as much as you'd like to be!! But yet you don't wanna do anything about changing it. When she lost her mother at the young age of 50, last yr, WHILE SHE WAS PREGNANT W YOUR CHILD!! SHE WAS THE ONE TAKING CARE OF HER OWN MOTHER CUZ NOBODY ELSE COULD & SHE WAS PREGNAT WHEN SHE HAD TO BURY HER!! & IT WAS HER SISTER/ BEST FRIEND WHO STOOD BY HER SIDE ALL THROUGH OUT HER PREGNANCY, IT WAS HER SISTER/ BEST FRIEND WHO WAS THERE IN THE DELIVERY ROOM WHILE SHE GAVE BIRTH TO YOUR CHILD. IT WAS SHE WHO HAD TO BURY HER GRANDMOTHER JUST A FEW MONTHS LATER!! IT WAS SHE WHO HAD TO BURY HER SISTER/ BEST FRIEND JUST 2 DAYS AFTER YOUR CHILDS FIRST BIRTHDAY. WHEN HER SISTER/ BEST FRIEND WAS ONLY 32 & HAD A MASSIVE HEART ATTACK!! IT WAS SHE WHO HAD LOST HER DAD AT THE AGE OF 8 YEARS!! IT WAS SHE WHO HAD TO FORK OUT A SHIT LOAD OF MONEY TO COVER THE FUNNERAL EXPENSES OF ALL OF HER LOVED ONES IN LESS THAN 2 YEARS!! IT WAS SHE WHO HAS PAID HER WAY THROUGH COLLEGE! IT WAS SHE WHO STOOD BY YOUR SONS SIDE WHILE HE WAS WALKING NEXT TO DEATH! IT IS SHE WHO IS RAISING 4 CHILDREN ALL ON HER OWN! WHO PAYS HER OWN BILLS! WHO FIXES HER OWN CAR WHEN IN NEED WITH NOBODY'S HELP! WHO HAS TAKEN YOUR CHILD TO THE DOCTORS & ER WHEN NEEDED! WHO WAKES UP & CARES FOR YOUR CHILD ALL HRS OF THE NIGHT!!
HOW FUCKIN DARE YOU!!! CALL HER BOO HOOING ABOUT YOU NEVER BEING ABLE TO GET AHEAD OR CAUGHT UP ON YOUR BILLS!! WHEN YOU'RE 40YRS OLD, LIVING WITH YOUR PARENTS WHO ARE STILL ALIVE!! WHO PAYS FOR YOUR DAUGHTERS EXPENSES, NEEDS & NECCESSATIES!! YET DON'T WANNA HAVE ANYTHING TA DO WITH YOUR SON, NOR DO THEY EVER WANT TO, WHOM HAVE TOLD YOU TO KEEP AWAY FROM THEM!! OR ABOUT YOUR FUCKIN X GIRLFRIEND WHOM YOU, MISS TREMENDOUSLY, BUT COULDN'T STAND TO LIVE WITH DUE TO HER INSECURITY ISSUES! & HOW FUCKING DARE YOU SIT THERE & BOO HOO ABOUT YOU NOT BEING ABLE TO BE THERE FOR YOUR SON AS MUCH AS YOU'D LIKE TO BE. YET YOU STILL HAVE NO WAY OF CHANGING THAT!! WHEN SHE TOLD YOU THE DOOR WOULD ALWAYS BE OPENED TO YOU & YOUR SON!!
ALL OF THE SHIT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH IS ABSO FUCKING LUTELY NOTHING COMPARED TO WHAT SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH OR WHAT YOU HAVE PUT HER THROUGH!! SO UNLESS YOU'VE STEPPED FOOT IN HER SHOES,...SHUT THA FUCK UP!! STOP YOUR PISSY ASS WINING ABOUT HOW SHITTY YOU THINK YOUR LIFE IS! YOU HAVEN'T EVEN CROSSED THE SAME PEBBLES IN WHICH SHE HAS, LET ALONE WALKED A FOOT IN HER PATH!
Don't get me wrong, I strongly believe in bein civil to tha best of your ability with an x, especially if you share a child together. If yer able to carry on a perty decent if not some what of a close relationship with that person, then great. HOWEVER; considering the circumstances that may have been tha cause of the break up I'd be perty leary on some things shared w that person.
Here's an example;
If ya leave yer partner fer someone else & if your partner was a woman & she just found out that she was pregnant w your child & ya do yer x partner dirty in more ways than one! THEN DON"T GO BOO HOOING TO HER ABOUT YER LIFE!! due to all of the choices in which you have made!! ESPECIALLY if you kept her pregnancy secret from EVERYONE around you, including your parents, your new gf & all of your friends & then didn't have ANYTHING ta do with tha pregnancy in any way what so ever, not ta mention being non compliant w any & all doctors involved with the care of the pregnancy or tha child before or after birth!! & avoided participating in a paternity test for several months after the baby was born, when she & tha child had their part done immediately after delivery!! Let's not forget tha fact that a text was sent to her saying, "I don't want to have anything to do with it. I want proof! even then I'm going to sign all over to you" while this child is in the hospital knocking on deaths door just 7days after being born! & tha fact you didn't set eyes on the child until it was 10 months of age! fer tha first time! & here tha child is 15months of age & you've only seen tha child a total of 8 times since birth!! BY YOUR CHOICE & NOT THA MOTHERS!!
HOW DARE YOU!! BOO HOO 2 HER about your now x girlfriend that you left her for or about your psychiotic outta control daughter, or yer best friend who just committed suicide or your parents who are 89 yrs of age & are not doing well & better yet HOW FUCKING DARE YOU tell her you don't like the fact you're not there for your child as much as you'd like to be!! But yet you don't wanna do anything about changing it. When she lost her mother at the young age of 50, last yr, WHILE SHE WAS PREGNANT W YOUR CHILD!! SHE WAS THE ONE TAKING CARE OF HER OWN MOTHER CUZ NOBODY ELSE COULD & SHE WAS PREGNAT WHEN SHE HAD TO BURY HER!! & IT WAS HER SISTER/ BEST FRIEND WHO STOOD BY HER SIDE ALL THROUGH OUT HER PREGNANCY, IT WAS HER SISTER/ BEST FRIEND WHO WAS THERE IN THE DELIVERY ROOM WHILE SHE GAVE BIRTH TO YOUR CHILD. IT WAS SHE WHO HAD TO BURY HER GRANDMOTHER JUST A FEW MONTHS LATER!! IT WAS SHE WHO HAD TO BURY HER SISTER/ BEST FRIEND JUST 2 DAYS AFTER YOUR CHILDS FIRST BIRTHDAY. WHEN HER SISTER/ BEST FRIEND WAS ONLY 32 & HAD A MASSIVE HEART ATTACK!! IT WAS SHE WHO HAD LOST HER DAD AT THE AGE OF 8 YEARS!! IT WAS SHE WHO HAD TO FORK OUT A SHIT LOAD OF MONEY TO COVER THE FUNNERAL EXPENSES OF ALL OF HER LOVED ONES IN LESS THAN 2 YEARS!! IT WAS SHE WHO HAS PAID HER WAY THROUGH COLLEGE! IT WAS SHE WHO STOOD BY YOUR SONS SIDE WHILE HE WAS WALKING NEXT TO DEATH! IT IS SHE WHO IS RAISING 4 CHILDREN ALL ON HER OWN! WHO PAYS HER OWN BILLS! WHO FIXES HER OWN CAR WHEN IN NEED WITH NOBODY'S HELP! WHO HAS TAKEN YOUR CHILD TO THE DOCTORS & ER WHEN NEEDED! WHO WAKES UP & CARES FOR YOUR CHILD ALL HRS OF THE NIGHT!!
HOW FUCKIN DARE YOU!!! CALL HER BOO HOOING ABOUT YOU NEVER BEING ABLE TO GET AHEAD OR CAUGHT UP ON YOUR BILLS!! WHEN YOU'RE 40YRS OLD, LIVING WITH YOUR PARENTS WHO ARE STILL ALIVE!! WHO PAYS FOR YOUR DAUGHTERS EXPENSES, NEEDS & NECCESSATIES!! YET DON'T WANNA HAVE ANYTHING TA DO WITH YOUR SON, NOR DO THEY EVER WANT TO, WHOM HAVE TOLD YOU TO KEEP AWAY FROM THEM!! OR ABOUT YOUR FUCKIN X GIRLFRIEND WHOM YOU, MISS TREMENDOUSLY, BUT COULDN'T STAND TO LIVE WITH DUE TO HER INSECURITY ISSUES! & HOW FUCKING DARE YOU SIT THERE & BOO HOO ABOUT YOU NOT BEING ABLE TO BE THERE FOR YOUR SON AS MUCH AS YOU'D LIKE TO BE. YET YOU STILL HAVE NO WAY OF CHANGING THAT!! WHEN SHE TOLD YOU THE DOOR WOULD ALWAYS BE OPENED TO YOU & YOUR SON!!
ALL OF THE SHIT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH IS ABSO FUCKING LUTELY NOTHING COMPARED TO WHAT SHE HAS BEEN THROUGH OR WHAT YOU HAVE PUT HER THROUGH!! SO UNLESS YOU'VE STEPPED FOOT IN HER SHOES,...SHUT THA FUCK UP!! STOP YOUR PISSY ASS WINING ABOUT HOW SHITTY YOU THINK YOUR LIFE IS! YOU HAVEN'T EVEN CROSSED THE SAME PEBBLES IN WHICH SHE HAS, LET ALONE WALKED A FOOT IN HER PATH!
Friday, August 15, 2008
GROW UP!!
Grow Up!! Current mood: annoyed Category: MySpace
This blog is goin' out to any & all of you that just need ta GROW THA F**K UP!! OK It's like this,...this is MYSPACE!! hello hence tha wrd "MY" "SPACE" as in everyone up on here has one of their own! WTF reason do I have with a myspace webspace? well wtf do u have with yers? Don't ask dumb ass ?'s such as that if yer not lookin ta receivin' a dumb ass reply! Tho if ya feel ya REALLY must know!! IT"S NONE OF YER FUCKIN ASS BUSINESS! HOwever I CAN GUARANFUCKINTEE YA!! I"M NOT HERE LOOKIN' 4 NO MAN!! & I'M SURES THA HELL NOT HERE WANTIN' OR TRYIN" TA GET WITH YERS EITHER!! TO ALL OF YOU LITTLE GIRLS OUT THERE TRIPPIN' over me sending a friendly virtual kiss out to yer man! GROW THA FUCK UP!! If I wanted yer man i can guaranfuckintee ya I'd have him! ok?! Who's ta say he hasn't already tried gettin with me? Chances are great that yer man & I have been friends a HELL of ALOT longer than you've ever known him! U don't know me!, I may/may not know u just tha same it matters not ta me. Don't be sending me some dumb ass bullshit, TELLIN ME ta STOP sendin out a virtual friendly kiss to yer man & he's yers not mine! I gotta man!! A man I sures tha hell don't plan on leavin' anytime soon! Chances are great my man's a hell of a better one than yers is ta you! I'm 1 picky ass biotch, I don't settle fer anything less than what I feel I deserve! I only get with tha good men, not tha trashy ones. As I said b4 U don't know me, u don't know tha history I may/may not have with yer man, that yer trippin over. i'm a true treasure all in it's own EVERYBODY esp. every man who's ever crossed my path cherish & treasure tha friendship in which they have with me. If you feel threatened over some virtual ass bullshit! Then get tha fuck off tha web! if yer not able ta grow tha fuck up & get over some stupid ass shit such as that!
This blog is goin' out to any & all of you that just need ta GROW THA F**K UP!! OK It's like this,...this is MYSPACE!! hello hence tha wrd "MY" "SPACE" as in everyone up on here has one of their own! WTF reason do I have with a myspace webspace? well wtf do u have with yers? Don't ask dumb ass ?'s such as that if yer not lookin ta receivin' a dumb ass reply! Tho if ya feel ya REALLY must know!! IT"S NONE OF YER FUCKIN ASS BUSINESS! HOwever I CAN GUARANFUCKINTEE YA!! I"M NOT HERE LOOKIN' 4 NO MAN!! & I'M SURES THA HELL NOT HERE WANTIN' OR TRYIN" TA GET WITH YERS EITHER!! TO ALL OF YOU LITTLE GIRLS OUT THERE TRIPPIN' over me sending a friendly virtual kiss out to yer man! GROW THA FUCK UP!! If I wanted yer man i can guaranfuckintee ya I'd have him! ok?! Who's ta say he hasn't already tried gettin with me? Chances are great that yer man & I have been friends a HELL of ALOT longer than you've ever known him! U don't know me!, I may/may not know u just tha same it matters not ta me. Don't be sending me some dumb ass bullshit, TELLIN ME ta STOP sendin out a virtual friendly kiss to yer man & he's yers not mine! I gotta man!! A man I sures tha hell don't plan on leavin' anytime soon! Chances are great my man's a hell of a better one than yers is ta you! I'm 1 picky ass biotch, I don't settle fer anything less than what I feel I deserve! I only get with tha good men, not tha trashy ones. As I said b4 U don't know me, u don't know tha history I may/may not have with yer man, that yer trippin over. i'm a true treasure all in it's own EVERYBODY esp. every man who's ever crossed my path cherish & treasure tha friendship in which they have with me. If you feel threatened over some virtual ass bullshit! Then get tha fuck off tha web! if yer not able ta grow tha fuck up & get over some stupid ass shit such as that!
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Brian GET THA FUCK OVER YERSELF! punk ass bitch!Current mood: irritatedCategory: LifeIve made serveral posts these few days. Mostly ta help get things off my mind as always, in hopes it wud bring some sort of relief in the areas that are bothersome to me deep within. Today I'm doin' it fer a few reasons ta vent, as well as ta let someone who may or may not read this know" I think yer an ignorant ass motha fucker who DOES NOT KNOW ME!! yer so fuckin stuck on yerself it's UNREAL cuz ya know what! U AIN"T SHIT!! yer none other than an immature wanna be! U AIN"T A MAN! U AIN"T A GOOD FATHER! 2 me yer nothing but a fuckin WASTE OF CUM! who cries more than a baby!" U think my updates are in reference 2 u? GET THA FUCK OVER YERSELF!!" My life no longer has anything ta do with u!! Continue ta let yer mamma & daddy raise yer kid! Lord knows they're doin a better job then u cud eva do! Any of my updates have NOTHING TA DO WITH U Unless yer name is there! U know not what goes on in my life! & NEVA WILL! yer psycho ass self really thinks I'd wanna have some LOSER like u as bein a prt of it? PALEASE pussy I DESERVE MUCH BETTER THAN THAT!! U can't scare me!! U CAN"T CONTROL ME! & THAT PISSES U OFF!! I GOTTA LIFE! A DAMN GOOD DRAMA FREE 1 @ THAT! u ain't nothin' but drama! Drama ain't me! So take yer drama ass, wanna b me, self on dwn tha line & leave me tha fuck alone! PALEASE HATE ME! cuz u ain't me! u ain't with me! u will NEVA have any type of friendship with me! When ya wonder y you have no TRUE FRIENDS,...evaluate yerself!! I know who/ what I am, so do all of my friends! They know me inside & out, like no otha! I got them, I've had them since the day we all met! HATE US cuz u will NEVA have what we have! or be us! A TRUE FRIENDSHIP! 1 that will NEVA B BROKEN BY ANYONE! Esp. some low life loser such as yerself! U think u cud come between us? ROFLMFAO guess we proved yo ass wrong!!, huh?! If u did anything to our friendship, all ya did wuz make it even stronger than b4 wtih yer psycho ass self! They always looked out fer me b4, now ya got their asses watchin' out after me even more! U didnt do shit ta me! U just hate it cuz I'mma better person than u eva have or eva will be! Or cud eva be with! Yeah I'm 2 GOOD 4 YO LOSIN ASS SELF! YEAH I WILL FIND ME 1 KICK ASS GOOOD MAN! Who knows how ta treat a REAL WOMAN such as myself. Ain't nothin but a thang ta me cuz I'm drama free & got my shit together in life! unlike u! so keep on steppin & let me b!
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
My Thots on Brian’s most recent e-mail
Ya REALLY THINK this crap of an e-mail is gonna make up fer any of that BULLSHIT?? let me tell ya somethin', "With a friend like you, Who would need enemies?" "TO HAVE A FRIEND,ONE MUST B A FRIEND!!" you? obviously don't even remotely know what it's like to be a friend! Nor do you know what it's like ta even have any! I doubt you even know tha meaning of bein' a friend!FRIENDS+FAMILY= TRUE LUV 4 LIFE!! men & woman will come within one's life but'cha know what "FRIENDS+FAMILY WILL ALWAYS BE THERE!! NO MATTER WHAT!!!" Ya may come from a family who's always fed yer ass with a silver spoon & served yer shit on a platinum platter, while I may have been scramblin fer scraps & wipin my own ass, tho,as we all say "money may buy alotta things but it sures tha hell CANT buy TRUE FRIENDS" Money CANNOT BUY tha things within ones life that mean tha most!! i.e love which is given by those who truly mean & care tha most! those who KNOW what a true friend IS! THOSE who ALWAYS HAVE & ALWAYS WILL B THERE THRU THICK & MOTHA FUGGIN THIN!! Yeah I may come from tha hood!! Yeah that may be tha place in which my roots come! Butcha know what?! viewin yer life & many others just like you, I'm GLAD, I"M PROUD my ass struggled/s in life! I"M PROUD OF WHERE I COME FROM, I'M PROUD OF MY LIFE! I'M PROUD TO SAY I HAVE STRUGGLED THRU OUT MY LIFE!! it all MADE ME STRONGER!! NO, I may not have people always there jumpin ta lend a hand whenever I stumble, but'cha bet yer ass they know when I'm needin to be lifted up again!! They have taught me many of things within life! i.e ALWAYS BE STRONG! ALL of tha things in which I've learned by livin my life! I wud have NEVER LEARNED if I had lived a life such as yours! Compared ta u my ass may be considered as bein' BROKE 2 u! but as I ALWAYS SAY!,"I'D RATHER BE THA POOREST WOMAN IN THA WORLD YET THA RICHES, THAN BE THA RICHEST & THA POOREST!" "I DON'T NEED YOU!! I MAY NOT HAVE BANK ALL THA TIME BUTCH'A KNOW WHAT!?! I GOT ALL I EVER WILL NEED WITHIN LIFE & THAT'S SOMETHIN' U WILL NEVA HAVE!! SOMETHIN MONEY WILL NEVER BE ABLE TA BUY!" No I may not be a super model, have perfect perly straight white teeth or have a completely flat ass stomach or tits that were as firm as they once were due to choosing ta bring all of my beautiful babies into this fucked up of a world!!YEAH I have many visible scars placed upon my body from many battles in which I've fought thruout my life! BUTCHA KNOW WHAT?! I WEAR THEM ALL WITH GREAT PRIDE!!Try ta break me as ya may tho lemme tell ya,U WILL NOT SUCCEED!! I HAVE PRIDE BABY & THERE"S NOTHIN ANYONE CUD EVA DO TA TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME!! I'M a better person than you eva will be! & that u can take to yer motha fuggin FAKE ASS bank!! With yer FAKE ASS SELF! As far as yer FAKE ASS hand shake offerin? WTF EVER!! I've already heard it ALL before!! u think of NOONE OTHER THAN YER OWN FAKE ASS SELF!! Don't be tryin' ta pull a guilt trip on me by sayin' I need ta think of tha kids sake 'er wtf ever! Just as Larry told ya, I HAVE ALWAYS THOT OF OTHERS B4 MYSELF! KIDS & FAMILY VALUES, HAVE ALWAYS COME 1ST IN MY BOOKS! ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS WILL!! I"VE ALWAYS PUT MYSELF LAST! NEVER HAVE I EVER THOT ABOUT GAINING ANYTHING FROM ANYTHING THAT I'VE EVER DONE! Tha rewards to me, are much greater in tha long run that may or may not ever be seen! i don't ever expect ta gain anything! I know when my days here on Earth are done & I go upon my creator it is HE & ONLY HE WHOM I WILL HAVE 2 EVER ANSWER TOO! HE IS & WILL ALWAYS BE MY ONLY JUDGE!! IT'S HE WHOM I WILL HAVE TA ANSWER TO! & I KNOW it is then will tha rewards be great! You've done told me, "GOOD BYE FOREVER" so let it be left @ that! As far as Kyley goes,...yeah I LOVE THAT LITTLE GIRL WITH MY WHOLE HEART & SOUL, YEAH I TOOK HER IN AS ONE OF MY OWN, & TRULY FELT AS IF SHE WERE! BUT IF YER GONNA B SELFISH, IGNORANT, TRY USIN HER AS A PAWN JUST TA GET YER WAY? WTF KINDDA SHIT IS THAT? YEAH I WILL MISS THAT LITTLE GIRL A GREAT DEAL AS I CURRENTLY DO. YEAH I DO/ WILL THINK OF HER OFTEN! MORE THAN YOU! THO U HAVE NO CONTROL OVER ME, ONLY HER & I WILL GET OVER THAT FACT. THA FACT THAT HER DADDY HAS NO LIFE OR CONTROL OF HIS OWN THEREFORE HE HAS TA TAKE CONTROL OF ANOTHER PERSONS LIFE TO TRY FEELIN SOME SENCE OF SELF-WORTH!! YEAH U MAY HAVE CONTROL OVER US SEEIN HER, BUT THAT'S ALL YOU'LL EVER HAVE CONTROL OVER! SO GO AHEAD USE THAT LITTLE GIRL AS A WEAPON TO TRY HURTIN OTHERS/US. MY KIDS HAVE SEEN & READ MERELY EVERYTHING IN WHICH YOU HAVE SENT ME! YEAH WE DO/ WILL MISS KYLEY OFTEN BUT GUESS WHAT WE WILL GET OVER IT!! YA KNOW Y? BCUZ WE ARE STRONG & WILL NEVER LET ANYONE TRY BRINGIN' US DWN OR TO CONTROL US IN ANY WAY!! AND THAT!! U CAN TAKE 2 YO MOTHA FUGGIN FAKE ASS BANK, WITH YER FAKE ASS SELF!! I HAVE NOTHIN TA HIDE! I PRAY FOR THAT LITTLE GIRL OF YOURS!!
Brian’s latest e-mail
Brian’s latest e-mail Current mood: annoyed
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Date:
May 31, 2008 2:24 AM
Date:
May 31, 2008 2:24 AM
Subject:
Plz. read important about time with Ky... no joke!!!!
Body:
I would like to apoligize for the words that were said by me.. i really dont regret dating you... i did learn a lot.. i meant what i said on the IM's about you taking a friend from me.. YOU!!! i know we have been good and WAY BAD... but now we know where we stand i would like to extend my hand to shake yours. I would like to know, now that we have both said hateful things to each other, can we make up to some degree and be friends????Maybe someday, in time, we (meaning you, me, and all the kids) can hang out for the day together... I dont know about letting ky go with just you and the kids but if we all hang out that im sure would be great... I apoligize for my behavior, and NO i wasnt really wanting sex for exchange for spending time with ky. but i wanted to make it so outlandish that you would have no other answer than no... that way i could say no... i do have to admit... i was messing with you... i didnt mean for it to go that far.. i was just wanting to tease you a bit but got off on a bit of a tangent... I am not looking for an answer, at all really, but i do feel bad.. for messing with ya... So like i said i would like to extend my hand to shake yours so maybe we can atleast be friends and so that we can all hang out sometime... that way we can all have a good time... togetherLet me know, or not... its up to you... Sincerely, Me
Brian’s E-mail bout my kids & I takin’ Kyley to tha Drive Inn Current mood: ? Category: ? Life
Brian
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May 30, 2008 3:43 AM
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Help: FlagMessage If you get a message that is spam (someone trying to sell you something, get you to look at their profile, or redirect you to another website), click the 'Spam' button to notify us. If the email is not spam, but is abusive in nature (cyberbullying, inappropriate content, or another matter), click on 'Abuse'. You can then let us know what type of abuse the message is. Thanks for your help in moderating MySpace Mail!Date Sent: 5/30/2008 3:43:00 AMBody:Amy,Ok I see your point on how im looking at things but you aren't looking at my point… Your kids WANT to see ky, and Im going to guess, cuz I cant speak for ky, but I guess she WANTS to see your kids… so to me those WANTS cancel out!!!! Alright, now onto us… you have stated to me and I quote, " you that but in the Now look at it from my point of view… you said you WANT to see and spend time with Kyley. I WANT to have a buddy for a couple, three times a week. Now to me that is NOT just regarding the well-being of myself but for BOTH of us…and the kids…. You get your WANT and I would get my WANT… Ok now the definition of equality…(there are 2 definitions but the 2nd one relates to math so I will leave it out…1. The state or instance of being equal; especially, the state of enjoying equal rights, as political, economic, and social… so lets see here… AGAIN REMEMBER the kids WANTS cancel each other out and its you and I here… you WANT and I WANT something… if we BOTH get a "WANT" then its equal… If you get a WANT and I don't… then its YOU being selfish by WANTING and not GIVING something in return…. So see really, I just would like everyone to be happy and equal… and NO ONE be selfish….Ok now onto your last text to me saying, "There wud b a lot you wud gain. Tho that's not 4 me 2 tell nor show. That is something only u may hopefully see and or think about. Tho I've never heard of a selfish person ever comin out on top"… that is how you typed it to me… lets break it down… 1st There wud b a lot you wud gain… well lets see… relationship.. is out of the question… you said so… sex… again out of the question… you said you would never have sex w/me again… so lets see here, well move on because it all ties together… 2nd Tho that's not 4 me 2 tell nor show. That is something only u may hopefully see and or think about. Leaving it a mystery for me to think about… huh… well with the above (the 1st part) and adding in the 2nd part… Im guessing you want me to jump the gun and ASSUME that you would, AFTER seeing Kyley, have sex with me or something great so I would give in… well write this down on your calender… Im not jumping the gun this time… I am NOT going to assume that I would gain anything… Cuz what I think may mean that I would gain your friendship… I feel we can do that anyways… without kids seeing each other… and the only other thing I see me gaining is the status of being a sucker for giving in and believing that something would be gained and nothing is… So you will have to tell me EXACTLY what I would gain by giving you your WANT… cuz in reality.. I don't know what I would gain from you… and I don't know if that is what I WANT. So you'll have to let me know EXACTLY what would be gained… I don't feel im being selfish at all, but equal and until then your right… Tho I've never heard of a selfish person ever comin out on top…. Thank goodness im thinking of everyone's WANTS and not just my own…. Being selfish just doesn't fit me…. Whew…(wiping my forehead) yes thank goodness for equality… Sincerely,ME
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Sunday, June 01, 2008
CHILD USED AS A PAWN
Sunday, June 01, 2008
Child NOT bein’ used as a pawn? (whatever) Current mood: satisfied Category: Life
The following is a copy of the IM sent between Brian & I. As you read I'm sure you'd be able ta tell here who has more sence,logic & morals.Correct me if I'm wrong, after you've read it, is this or is this NOT considered as usin' a child as a pawn? not ta mention a man with major issues @ hand? I think it is. What do you think?
Child NOT bein’ used as a pawn? (whatever) Current mood: satisfied Category: Life
The following is a copy of the IM sent between Brian & I. As you read I'm sure you'd be able ta tell here who has more sence,logic & morals.Correct me if I'm wrong, after you've read it, is this or is this NOT considered as usin' a child as a pawn? not ta mention a man with major issues @ hand? I think it is. What do you think?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 01:53 PM): you there
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 01:53 PM): yep
deboro1: (05/30/2008 01:54 PM): ok so if i let ky go tonight, and the kids get what they would like, and you get to spend time with her, what you would like, lets be fair and equal to all here involved... what would i get?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 01:55 PM): instead of kids getting what they would like, and you getting what you would like and i get NOTHING of what i would like
deboro1: (05/30/2008 01:56 PM): can you answer that
deboro1: (05/30/2008 01:57 PM): ?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 01:57 PM): i dont understand how yer makin this out ta bein as if yer in need of gainin somethin out of us askin ta take kyley to tha drive inn tonight while yer gonna be @ wrk? NOW I do see where as you'd be wantin ta gain somethin out of it IF IT were gonna interfere with yer time with her. However! it's not!!
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 01:58 PM): As I said you'll be @ wrk, why not allow all tha kids spend some time together @ a time whereas it would not be interferring with yer time with her?deboro1: (05/30/2008 01:58 PM): just answer the question... you said in your text, there would be a lot to gain... tell me EXACTLY amy, plz
deboro1: (05/30/2008 01:59 PM): seriously... i would like to know... no more mystery
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:01 PM): that's somthin I'm not able to explain to u Brian due to our views are just so completely different from one another. I've always thot of others before myself. I'm not tryin' ta be mysteriouse here by any means tho my way of thinkin & viewing things are just different than yours. I'm a very spiritual, peacefull individual. I see things in ways so many others fail to see
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:01 PM): here's an example
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:02 PM): please share example
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:02 PM): what has a person gained by becoming a parent?heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:02 PM): what do u feel u have gained by becoming a parent?deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:02 PM): i thought it was an example.. not a question
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:03 PM): u may just see tha example I'm tryin ta give if you'd please just go along with me here
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:03 PM): I've always been more of tha optimistic type I tend ta vere from negativity
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:04 PM): to answer the 1st one... someone that they can look up to for support, care, loving etc
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:04 PM): well from kids point of view
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:04 PM): what about from your point of view?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:05 PM): from YOUR point of view what have you gained by becoming a parent?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:05 PM): being responsible for said child, providing, being there for child, support, care, etc
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:06 PM): to answer the second... wisdom
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:06 PM): ok fair enuff now lemme share with you what I feel I have gained by becoming a parent
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:09 PM): by becoming a parent I feel I've gained tha most presciouse gift that could ever be possibly given as a blessing from tha creator.I feel I've gained trust within the creator thru my soul to care for, guide & teach tha wisdom within me to them for they are a great blessing to me
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:10 PM): ok so i answered your questions now your turn
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:10 PM): & by doin' so the rewards will be great in tha end. By most those rewrds will go unlooked tho thru me they will be seen
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:11 PM): you just said, tho my way of thinkin & viewing things are just different than yours.
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:11 PM): that couldnt be anymore correct.
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:12 PM): and your saying by allowing kyley to go with you, i could gain what you said above???
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:13 PM): some examples of the many rewards in which I have seen by tha raisings of my children are their ability to come to me with their feelings/problems/concerns, an open relationship, communication, the feeling they have someone to always count on, look up to for support,will ALWAYS be there 4 them no matter what! the gains in which I have been given are so much greater & longer than I could ever list
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:13 PM): or something of the such however i look at things thru my point of view
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:14 PM): deboro1: and your saying by allowing kyley to go with you, i could gain what you said above???
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:14 PM): or something of the such however i look at things thru my point of view
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:15 PM): its a simple yes or no here
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:15 PM): ?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:15 PM): what you gain with your kids is one thing...
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:15 PM): your confusing yourself here as well as me
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:16 PM): lol I'm not confusing myself here by no means
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:16 PM): your wanting me to answer questions on what have i gained with my OWN kid
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:16 PM): thats time spent between Ky and I
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:16 PM): if tha tables were turned,....
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:17 PM): I MYSELF wouldn't be using any of my kids as a pawn 1st off!!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:17 PM): your giving examples of your kids and time spent with them
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:17 PM): I wudn't be actin tha way such as you!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:17 PM): ah ah ah lets be nice
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:17 PM): I myself would look @ it as
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:17 PM): STOP AMY!!!!!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:18 PM): your just typing not reading
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:18 PM): STOP and READ
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:19 PM): your questions you asked me to answer pertain to ky and i... your examples pertain to your kids and you.... and what YOU GAINED...
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:20 PM): my kids really misses the other kid/s, I'll be @ wrk, so it wouldn't be interfering with any of our quality time together, the drive inn would give them all some time to spend together, enjoy an outside movie then I could pick them/her up in tha morning or they/she could be dropped off @ whatever time I choose, why not?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:20 PM): my point is, what do I GAIN FROM YOU SPENDING TIME WITH MY DAUGHTER
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:20 PM): what would i feel Id gain in tha long run by viewin it this way
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:21 PM): I'd feel later dwn tha road my child/ren would view me as never keepin them from anyone they've grown a bond with
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:21 PM): ok ok ok ok ok...... ty ty ty ty ty for FINALLY ANSWERING THAT QUESTION
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:22 PM): OK SO STOP TYPING AND HERES THE ANSWER
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:22 PM): & that alone wud be reason enuff to me, knowin I've done right & have taught my kids to never use anyone as a weapon just to try hurtin someone elsedeboro1: (05/30/2008 02:22 PM): ARE YOU STOPPED???
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:22 PM): lol yup
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:22 PM): just follow along here
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:23 PM): you'll get it
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:24 PM): please hurry i have things that must be done today
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:25 PM): the kids want to spend time with ky... you want to spend time with ky... but i dont want "I'd feel later dwn tha road my child/ren would view me as never keepin them from anyone they've grown a bond with".
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:25 PM): see what i mean, everyone gets what they want.. except me
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:25 PM): i dont want that
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:26 PM): & correct me if Im wrong here but yer wantin ta have sex with me in exchange for tha children havin quality time together that wouldn't interfere with yer time?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:27 PM): i want everything to be EQUAL!!!!!! kids want, you want, deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:27 PM): and i want
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:27 PM): tho I refuse to have sex with you therefore; your gonna keep tha kids from each other & use them as weapons to hurt each other cuz I won't have sex with you??
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:28 PM): that perty much sums it up there if ya ask me
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:28 PM): if i let ky go with you all to the movies... kids get what they want, you get what you want... i again get NOTHING of what i want
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:28 PM): so being equal... its NOT
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:28 PM): & this has ta do with you how? other than tha fact she is your child?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:29 PM): yer tryin ta bring u & I into it
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:29 PM): which is bein selfish
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:30 PM): this isn't based on you nor I! it's based on tha kids would like ta spend quality time together!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:30 PM): NO you brought yourself into it by saying that you want to spend time with her
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:30 PM): and you benefit from that
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:30 PM): what is my benefits?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:30 PM): you get to spend time with ky too... dont forget that part
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:31 PM): that;'s how u view it tho again that's tha difference between u & I, u think of nobody other than yerself whereas I think of others before myself
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:31 PM): which means you get what you want
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:31 PM): no you dont
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:31 PM): you think oh the kids get to spend time with each other, and so do i cuz ill be there... but fuck brian
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:31 PM): right now i'm thinkin of al ltha kids wantin ta spend time together
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:32 PM): no brian that's not @ all how i view it
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:32 PM): ok lets go with that
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:32 PM): kids all togetherdeboro1: (05/30/2008 02:32 PM): where are you at
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:32 PM): at the time the kids are together
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:32 PM): with them right????
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:33 PM): i view it as all tha kids wanna spend time together, why not allow it ta happen @ a time where it will not interfere with yer time with her
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:33 PM): and thats what you want is to spend time with ky
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:33 PM): so you benefit from you kids wanting to spend time with ky
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:34 PM): what do i benefit from ky and the kids spending time together... you get to benefit... how come i dont
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:34 PM): ya know what I don't care!! my kids have sat here tha whole time with me 7 have read all that has been said, atleast they know I've tried
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:34 PM): equal amy equaldeboro1: (05/30/2008 02:35 PM): tried taking and not giving
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:35 PM): take and take amy
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:35 PM): yer too,....{i honestly am unable ta say how i view u in a nice way @ this current pnt n time}
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:35 PM): never give
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:35 PM): funny cuz that's NOT what you've always told me before!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:36 PM): im trying too
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:36 PM): i just want to know how come the kids benefit, you benefit from time spent together, and i dont
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:37 PM): yer fuckin askin ta have sex with me just so you can benefit from tha children spending time together!!
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:37 PM): now u tell me how in tha hell is that NOT WRONG?heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:37 PM): how is that NOT using yer own child as a pawn?heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:37 PM): HOW IS THAT NOT tryin ta use a child as a weapon to hurt others?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:38 PM): im saying equal....kids benefit, you benefit... answer this... how do i benefitdeboro1: (05/30/2008 02:38 PM): how amy how?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:38 PM): not ta mention how is that gonna effect, if it hasn't already, yer own child?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:39 PM): im really wanting for her to go but if i cant get a good answer....
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:39 PM): you keep beating around the bush
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:40 PM): no of course Brian all ya ever think about it YOU,YOU,YOU! YOU this & you that! & that;s all ya ever think abuot is you! hell even yer parents said that
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:40 PM): goodness my phone is blowing upheavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:40 PM): boy they weren't bullshittin were they? now I know
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:40 PM): it's not me
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:40 PM): really
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:40 PM): so if i dont want anything in return and i let her go... deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:41 PM): then your the selfish one right?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:41 PM): No I'm not bcuz i wouldn't be doin it 4 myselfdeboro1: (05/30/2008 02:41 PM): cuz your wanting to spend time with ky...... and offer nothing
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:41 PM): I'm tryin ta do this 4 tha kids
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:41 PM): so they can spend time with each other
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:42 PM): u know just as well as I do they al lmiss each other
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:42 PM): you can do something for someone else, benefit from it, give nothing in return and still be selfish
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:42 PM): ya know yer ,.........................
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:43 PM): right
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:43 PM): (i'm biting my tongue like a mfer here & tryin ta be civil tha absolute best I can) tho must admit
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:43 PM): it's becoming exceptionally hard doin so with a person who's selfish & one minded
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:44 PM): lol
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:45 PM): are u in need of seein a phsychiatrist?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:45 PM): see if the kids wanted to spend time together and you werent there then it would be ok, but since you want to spend time with ky too, and you benefit from them.. its like your using your kids as a pawn to get what you want too... oh snap
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:45 PM): didnt see it that way did ya
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:45 PM): u r sooo fucked in tha head!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:45 PM): ah ah ah
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:45 PM): be nice
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:45 PM): lol
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:46 PM): & if I don't?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:46 PM): see if the kids wanted to spend time together and you werent there then it would be ok, but since you want to spend time with ky too, and you benefit from them.. its like your using your kids as a pawn to get what you want too... thats using your kids as a pawn... getting what you want and being selfish cuz you want to give NOTHING in return
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:47 PM): and getting what you want all in the same breath
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:47 PM): what tha fuck ever Brian!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:48 PM): oh the answer is
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:48 PM): tho if that's how ya view it then so be it, it just goes ta show yer,...............(not even gonna say it)
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:48 PM): thats still being mean
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:48 PM): & there's nothing I'm able ta say ta have ya view it tha way in which we are
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:48 PM): you cant even be nice
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:49 PM): that was the first thing REMEMBER
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:49 PM): lol u really have NO CLUE! on how i can be when Im mean!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:50 PM): cops and courts are meaner i bet... if it comes down to it
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:50 PM): lol is that a threat?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:51 PM): i dont know, i always let others do things first...
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:51 PM): yeah & money can buy alot of things within life tho it's not able ta buy moral values or any of the meaninfull things within life
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:51 PM): b4 i blow up... like break a rule
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:51 PM): lol what rule?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:51 PM): like bring home a phone number from a girls night out... i dont know.. just pulling that out of thin air
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:52 PM):
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:52 PM): lol no yer not!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:52 PM): lol
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:52 PM): yer just tryin ta control me once again & demand what ever & throw a temper tantrum cuz yer not gettin yer way
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:53 PM): no really im not
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:53 PM): just proving a point
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:53 PM): lol & it's pissin ya off even more! cuz again it's not wrkin!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:53 PM): no i feel im in the drivers seat here
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:53 PM): ?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:53 PM): kids want and you want
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:53 PM): i want
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:54 PM): just put my ass out of tha equasion here ok
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:54 PM): we should be equal
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:54 PM): ok then who is taking the kids to the movies
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:54 PM): stop thinkin about yerself! think of tha kids, ya know someone other then yerself here
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:54 PM): u gonna do it? u wanna do it?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:54 PM): no i have to WORK
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:55 PM): go 4 it I don't have a problem with that
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:55 PM): take them yerself if ya want to
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:55 PM): ill take ky maybe this weekend
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:55 PM): my kids will be with their dad tomorrow, u will be with kyley when yer not at wrk
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:56 PM): but im supposed to leave you out of it... so whos taking the kids
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:56 PM): we've made these plans long ago I told all tha kids including kyley that I'd take 'em all to tha drive in tha 1st weekend they were opened which wud most likely be after memorial day
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:56 PM): its 3 oclock... i soon have to get ready for work bout another 30 min
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:56 PM): i have
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:57 PM): so answer the question if ya would plz
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:57 PM): im supposed to leave you out of it... so whos taking the kids
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:57 PM): what fuckin question?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:57 PM): ya know talkin ta u is senseless, useless not ta mention pointless
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:58 PM): you dont want to give anything in return... ok fine....
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:58 PM): then that means you DONT get to benefit from your kids seeing ky
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:58 PM): or that is selfishness
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:58 PM): unless you give back
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:58 PM): so again whos taking the kids?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 02:59 PM): tell me right here right now,..what does brian want to gain? what is it exactly you want? in exchange 4 allowin me ta take all of tha kids to tha drive in whereas they can spend some time together w/o it interfering with yer time with her?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 02:59 PM): ya know talkin ta u is senseless, useless not ta mention pointless... i feel the same way its like talking to a brick wall isnt it
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:00 PM): lol go ahead Brian make it loud & clear rt, here rt. now
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:00 PM): i already answered that MANY TIMES
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:00 PM): well do it again ONE LAST TIME!! if ya wud please
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:00 PM): more like what are you willing to give
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:01 PM): I'm giving my time for tha sake of tha childrens happiness
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:01 PM): sorry if u feel that's not good enuff 4 u
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:02 PM): not ta mention gas/money/consession cost
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:02 PM): ok let me reword that.. you get time with ky too... what do i get
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:02 PM): tho that means nothing to me, for tha gains later dwn tha road will be much greater & that 2 me is more than enuff
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:03 PM): oh another thing you gain time with ky and for tha gains later dwn tha road will be much greater & that 2 me is more than enuff
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:03 PM): you'd get ta hear about tha great time yer child had & hear tha happiness within her voice tho guess that's not good enuff 4 u
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:03 PM): jeez... take take take... but no giving
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:04 PM): see your trying to tell me what i get
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:04 PM): i told you what i want
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:04 PM): i guess yer child havin a good time, spendin time with people whom she's grown a good bond with isn't good enuff 4 u
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:04 PM): so fuggin tell me again!!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:04 PM): what your saying i get.... IS NOT WHAT I WANT!!!! BUT YOU WOULD GET WHAT YOU WANT
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:05 PM): so how come i dont get what i want
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:05 PM): answer plz
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:05 PM): i know the answer to that one alreadydeboro1: (05/30/2008 03:05 PM): btw
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:06 PM): & c Brian's not gettin exactly what he wants therefore he's gonna throw a fit & use his child as a weapon, not puttin his own daughters feelings or happiness into consideration
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:06 PM): my daughter is happy without seeing your kids or you
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:06 PM): she has PLENTY TO KEEP HER BUSY
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:06 PM): my sis is in town
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:07 PM): i never said she didnt
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:07 PM): and ky only gets to see her 2 times a year
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:08 PM): & if u claim she's happier not seein tha kids or me then so be it tho ya know deep within yerself yer only lyin' u know she misses them as well as myself dearly
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:08 PM): i didnt say happier
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:08 PM): i said happy
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:09 PM): tho I think that's enuff you've said yer piece, so be it. Afterall I care not ta associate myself with individuals who so chose ta use a child as a pawn to try hurtin others in any way
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:09 PM): then you shouldnt associate with yourself
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:09 PM): i dont use my children or anyone elses as a pawn in any way whatso ever
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:10 PM): cuz you using your kids spending time with kyley to benefit from it is using your kids as a pawn, where as i want to be EQUALS
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:10 PM): if i did then they wouldn't see any of tha people in which I know means alot to them
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:10 PM): and GIVE and TAKE
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:11 PM): yer not wantin equals here Brian yer just wantin ta have sex with me
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:11 PM): not just take or benefit and give nothing back
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:11 PM): as I told u if ya wanna get laid go do it!! go get yerself some it just aint happenin with me
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:11 PM): see if i was saying i want something, and give nothing in return, like your doing, then that would be SELFISH
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:12 PM): no Brian u are tha one bein selfish here
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:12 PM): not me
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:12 PM): Im just not willin to give into havin sex with you & that's pissin u off to no end, isn't it?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:12 PM): NO AMY... i want us ALL to get what he/she wants
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:12 PM): not just you and the kidsdeboro1: (05/30/2008 03:12 PM): thats selfish
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:13 PM): nope
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:13 PM): lol whatever Brian
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:13 PM): its not pissing me off.. as a matter of fact.. im laughing
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:13 PM): heres one for your brain to wrap around....
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:13 PM): say you did give me what i wanted....
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:14 PM): im not gonna have sex with you period
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:14 PM): would i back out and still not let you see ky????
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:14 PM): with all the cards on the table
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:15 PM): lol dunno & really wudn't bother me none as much as it wud tha kids & they're tha ones I'm thinkin about tha most not myself
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:15 PM): <<<------- stands up, puts his arm around ky and walks away FOREVER!!! and never looks back....
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:15 PM): IM NOT GIVING AND GIVING ANYMORE TO YOU... AND YOU WILL NOT TAKE FROM ME ANY LONGER
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:16 PM): WITHOUT GIVING BACK SOMETHING
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:16 PM): brian cut thru all tha stupid ass bullshit get yer head out of yer ass & tell me a few things
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:16 PM): what,,, i have 15 min
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:16 PM): just what in tha hell do u think i have taken from you exactly/
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:17 PM): ?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:17 PM): there now ya can't answer that one can ya?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:17 PM): a good friend
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:17 PM): & what good friend have i supposively taken from you?deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:17 PM): YOU
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:18 PM): no Brian what happened between us is all on you not Ideboro1: (05/30/2008 03:18 PM): really i broke your rule???
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:18 PM): i brought that home in your purse
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:19 PM): Brian a friendship is given tho once broken it must be re earned. do u really feel u deserve any type of friendship with me w how you've treated me?deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:20 PM): do you think it was fair to bring that number home... or go out with your girl on friday and then go out with me on sat... and then tell her you'd meet her at the door
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:20 PM): when it was OUR night out together
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:21 PM): by tha way I do know where that card came from & I'm thinkin about gettin some info about that person whos name wuz on tha card if that person is single
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:21 PM): maybe I'll drop a line
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:21 PM): ya know we could have went somewhere else and it would have been ok... but since you wanted to change OUR night for ALL of us going out.... FUCK THAT
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:22 PM): good for you
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:22 PM): perhaps then it wud give ya a little justification 2 yer accusations
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:22 PM): i knew you were a liar and not to mention a possible cheater
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:23 PM): by all means i dont think theres anythin ya hate more than ta be proven wrong
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:23 PM): me bein tha 1st really eats @ ya
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:23 PM): i knew you knew where that came from
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:23 PM): & it's eatin ya alive knowin I'm not like any of those other unhonest woman you've been with
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:23 PM): and you lied
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:24 PM): just like myspace blog
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:24 PM): i didn't @ 1st tho found out later it wuz D's
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:24 PM): editing it and all
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:24 PM): adding a whole page of shit
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:24 PM): and rewording some sentences... you did and you know it
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:25 PM): I wondered myself wtf it came from cuz I know i didnt take it from anyone. Come ta find out D said it may have fell out of his pocket cuz he had a few that night
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:25 PM): I DONT CARE AMY!!!!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:25 PM): we are done with each other...
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:26 PM): the reason i say no to kyley spending time with you... cuz there is NOTHING you can give me that would benefit me
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:26 PM): whatever Brian take yer anger elsewhere. I can only pray that someday u will find peace within yerself & someday conquor all of your issues @ hand
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:27 PM): sex is like pizza... yeah its good, but its still pizza when you look at it
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:27 PM): the only anger i have is wasting 4 months with you and gaining NOTHING
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:27 PM): I'm sorry u view it that way
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:27 PM): fortunately I'm unable ta say tha same
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:28 PM): I feel I gained alot
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:28 PM): im sorry you lied about wanting to be a family when we first started seeing each other
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:28 PM): im sorry you wanted to spend more time going out w/friends than with the one that loved you
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:28 PM): tha time spent with you I feel wuz not wasted in any means what so ever tho it wuz time well spent & enjoyed from time-time & alot wuz gained
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:29 PM): well i take that back
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:29 PM): i did learn somethin
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:30 PM): aloot of lessons were learned & that 2 me is priceless
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:30 PM): *alot
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:30 PM): I have VERY VERY FEW REGRETS, if any
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:30 PM): people who spend more time going out with friends than with the one that loves them and keeps secrets, and doesnt tell the WHOLE TRUTH... just have things to hide... and is not for KYLEY or I
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:31 PM): but truthfully, i learned that with my ex wife
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:31 PM): u know not me, yet u've judged me in a bad way from day one
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:32 PM): you gave me examples from day one well night one
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:32 PM): u never even wanted ta see me 4 who I am, instead u saw me as u wanted to see me which wuz like all yer x's
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:32 PM): which isn't/wuzn't me
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:32 PM): for example... you said as i walked in the door the first night... it not like me to leave food out...
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:32 PM): but yet you did
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:33 PM): I am a true treasure, I am who I am, I'm proud of bein me, I'd rather have it no other way cuz i am @ peace with myself & all others around me
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:33 PM): umm no actually I didn't
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:35 PM): u have many issues within yerself that only u can handle Brian before you will ever find a lasting true meaning relationship with anyone. Handeling those issues will take great time & with knowin that I wish you the absolute best on your quest.
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:36 PM): i only have issues with those who keep secrets
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:36 PM): i have to get ready for work now
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:37 PM): farewell Brian
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:37 PM): and the answer is NO amy....
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:37 PM): NO ky... NO more
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:37 PM): Brian yer not tellin me anything I didn't already know
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:37 PM): same
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:37 PM): about what i wanted
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:38 PM): i made it SO far fetched you would say NO... AND SO COULD Ideboro1: (05/30/2008 03:38 PM): fair is fair
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:38 PM): or i could say
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:38 PM): u wanted control & I wudn't give it all 2 u tho wuz willin to comprimise
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:38 PM): you dont always get what you want
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:39 PM): tho u didn't wanna comprimise or get what u wanted so ya threw a fit
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:39 PM): & ya know what yer absolutely correct on that, tho I've never in my entire life expected ta get what I've always wanted
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:39 PM): no to be totally honest, i reset the meeting for ky and her mom... wanting you to give in. then after you did... was going to back out
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:40 PM): and at that point tell you ky would be unavailable
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:40 PM): ? when & where did I give into & ta what?
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:40 PM): no you said i wanted control
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:40 PM): and i was telling you what i was thinking
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:41 PM): oh ok
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:41 PM): dont know if i would have went thru with it...
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:41 PM): cuz getting you prego... would be crap
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:41 PM): & now who's tha one lyin?
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:42 PM): yeah my thots exactly!
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:42 PM): yep i lied after you did MANY TIMES
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:43 PM): a lot of lies to 1.... yep...
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:43 PM): that's just it Brian I never lied
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:43 PM): yeah ya did....
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:43 PM): and do
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:43 PM): I may have left a few things out due to spacin it off tho I've never lied
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:43 PM): i have to get ready for work.... Good luck with your friends... cuz true love wont find those who wont spend time with them
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:43 PM): oh well no, now wait a min I take that back, I have lied to you once
deboro1: (05/30/2008 03:44 PM): Good bye amy.... and good luck FOREVER
heavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:44 PM): & that wuz tha day of my doctors appointment
eavenzeyes: (05/30/2008 03:44 PM): likewise BrianLast message received at 05/30/2008 03:44 PM
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Sunday, April 30, 2006
LOL Don't we all have something or someone that appears in our lives on a daily basis that just really ANNOYS US? I know I sures tha hell do! In fact I have this really big one that just WILL NOT GO AWAY! I was thinkin' today as I was sittin on tha toilet lid, just spacing off @ tha corner of my wall, of how if I were to have only 1 wish, I think I know what it'd be. My wish would be to go back in time, and wish to have never met a certain person in my life. OR I'd wish to have made a different choice when I had tha chance. I'd never thought a person would be able to get under my skin so dern much that I'm not able to tollerate being near them fer even a minute. Knowing that I have a person I'm not able to even tollerate bein' near really bugs me! LOL What bugs me even more is tha fact, this person is gonna be a part of my life, for as long as I'm here on Earth! Due to tha fact this person was tha donor for the conception of my 3 children.
